hey people !
had a wonderful day yea .
although im like an extra dumdbell there . as long as my steady is happy that i went .
hahah , and the main point ..
congrats lah steady ! super happy for you lah ! hahah .
but actually i really really feel ... aiyah , dont know how to say lah .
yes , you said i will not be replaced , but i felt the different way .
& i dont mean that i dont trust what you said ..
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ..
just anyone can scold me for my foolishness & selfishness !! really .
but , if you dont uds dont anyhow scold hor .
well , sort of moody today , but i tried my best to controlled . yea ..
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk lah !
i've never ever have this feeling before can ! jibye , i hate myself tons !
but i still love my life ~~ heheh
fucker lah ! im totally a dumbass fucker that i dont even know what am i doing !!!!
yea , i end this post by scolding myself .
okays , i think i really have to wake up by banging my head on the wall ..
bye peeps !

Y im really afraid ..